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Manic??

2009-07-26T15:58:54Z

I keep forgetting to write. Too tired, too lazy. I've been a little off this week. Maybe manic?? I dont kno. I'm still getting used to this illness. Dont kno what to expect most days. I find myself thinking of taking pills or cutting myself. I do...

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Dear Mind!?

2009-06-17T02:39:45Z

Dear Mind, Someone gave me the real good idea to address my journal entries to 'dear God'. ...Okay. So ..how was my day??? I overslept as usual. Woke up at noon. The rushed over to my mother-in-law's house to do laundry. I was in a hurry because I...

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I might be gone for awhile...

2009-06-17T02:12:10Z

ok. Remember the sites I mentioned yesterday?? Well, I really like one of them. Its the realmentalhealth one. I seem to be spending alot of time there. I had like 8 comments to my journal which I just posted last night. And almost everyone on ther...

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3rd Journal Entry

2009-06-16T04:46:50Z

Today I'm feeling pretty good. I had a therapy session with my new therapist, cleaned up a bit, then went to the gym for an hr. Afterwards we had dinner, showered and I went on the computer. I'm so excited. I found 4 great sites on bipolar disorde...

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Update/ Journal Entry2

2009-06-14T03:45:53Z

Okay. First of all, I decided not to direct my entries to my father. Its too weird and just makes me angry. Secondly, as I was rereading some of my previous entries I realized I haven't updated my medical problems. I dont know if anyone actually r...

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1st journal entry

2009-06-13T06:05:03Z

Ricardo- Hello, Ricardo how's it going? I chose you to direct my journaling because I never had the courage to talk to you. I almost wish you could answer me back. I just dont understand. Was it just the drinking or did you really feel that way a...

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jounaling- a new form of therapy

2009-06-13T05:42:38Z

Okay so its not actually a new idea. I've kept a journal for as long as i can remember. I think I was 12 or 13. I've got like 5 notebooks which I saved. ( I threw one away because it was too depressing) As I got older I started writing less and le...

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Visiting my cousin

2009-05-28T19:40:58Z

As mentioned earlier, last week (Monday), I was released from the Glens. I'd been in there about a week after I was baker acted by my therapist (now ex-therapist). Well, about 2 days after being home my cousin, Josh, calls me and asked if I wanted...

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In the hospital again:(

2009-05-20T03:28:02Z

Okay so in my last post I spoke of my hospitalization after my 3rd (and hopefully final) suicide attempt. I was there Saturday May 2nd to Friday May 8th. I was free for four days. Four awful days. Let me explain. When I was out of the hospital I w...

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Not Again!!!!

2009-05-08T22:08:36Z

Well, its happened again. Today I was released from the hospital after another suicide attempt. It wasn't so bad this time. I didnt know that depokote wouldnt cause coma. Also I was interrupted so I only got to take a little over 15 pills. I didnt...

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